Today's Best Trauma
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Napansin ko yung katapat ko sa likod ng FX na sinakyan ko pauwi. Tuwid ang buhok, nagpulbos at mapula-pula ang mga pisngi. Medyo nahiya ako dahil pawisan at hindi pa ako nagsuklay ulit matapos lumabas ng bahay. Lumingon siya. Nako! Sabi ko na nga ba malakas ang pang-amoy ko pero in fairness, award ang beauty ni ate.
May sumakay sa tabi ko na mag-ina. Pilit na sumiksik si Jun-Jun sa gitna namin ng nanay niya. “Bayad po. Sa Welcome lang.”
Hinawi ng nanay ang buhok ni Jun-Jun. “Tingnan mo, mukha kang girl kapag ganito yung buhok mo. Kamukhang kamukha mo kasi si nanay ano?”
“Opo.” sabi ni Jun-Jun.
“Sa tabi lang po.” bumaba na si pa-girl.
Ayaw lumipat ni Jun-Jun sa kabila. Gusto niyang katabi ang nanay niya kahit halos di na ko makahinga sa sikip.
“Nanay, sasali ako sa Pilipinas Got Talent.”
“Anong talent mo?”
“Kakanta po!”
“Anong kakantahin mo?” sinimulan ni nanay, “Friday night and the lights are low..”
Sumabay si Jun-Jun, “Looking out for a place to go..”
“Where they play the right music, getting in the swing..”
“You come to look for a king..”
“You are the dancing queen..”
Bumaba sina Jun-Jun sa Welcome.
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Posted 8 months agoWhile most are searching for greener pastures, I’m heading back to my grassroots with a hardcore sunblock in my hand
It is exactly two months since I started becoming a community nurse. Just two weeks after taking the board exams, my mom encouraged me to start working where she and my dad is working/used to work. It is not what I planned, because I really do not have plans yet but I did what I was told.
I was too excited for the first two weeks since I haven’t been doing anything for a long time and I’m not used to that and prolly too happy cos I graduated and just finished taking the board exams.
This is a totally different experience. After four years (or more) of having my driver bring me to or sometimes from school, I finally learned how to commute (and I’m so proud!). I rode jeepneys, buses, FXs, and trains. I’m not gonna lie, public transportation traumatized me a bit. I was used to having a private car that can take me to Quezon City from Manila in less than an hour but now I had to learn to get up earlier, take a bath fast, and get ready faster if I wouldn’t want to be late or worse wade the flood waters in Taft Avenue.
And speaking of getting ready faster, I had to tone down my kakikayan as well and become simpler because that would be more appropriate with what I do right now. I started letting go of my foundation (with SPF 15) and I replaced it with my tinted moisturizer (with SPF 15 as well), of course that is after applying my usual SPF 50. I also had to give up putting on my precious mascara (yes, my favorite step) and I totally miss it. I also just wear lip balm with my lip and cheek stain instead of my lip glosses or lipsticks.
Halfway through that first month though, I was terribly depressed and I felt like giving up. I’m still not sure if that was PMS or if I was just really having a hard time adjusting to a new environment or the “reality”. My parents noticed that I was not as happy as I used to and talked to me about it. They made me realize that I lacked appreciation for the blessings I have right now. I hated myself for it but me and myself are okay now. I have learned so much in these two months and this is prolly just the beginning. I feel like I have met the most people in my entire lifetime in just two months, maybe not by their names or faces but by their hearts.
1 noteJust Another Genie: Did you know... v. "Fashion"
- The average woman uses 20 beauty products and grooming devices in her morning routine? (Come on, you all, you’re too beautiful as it is to need all that!)
- The art of makeup goes back 8,000 years. Cleopatra would line her lower lids in green, and her upper lids blue-black. Wonder if she…
(Source: imjustanothergenie)
TTFN, Facebook!
I will temporarily deactivate my Facebook account and pretend that I am focusing with my review classes for this July’s board exams. I know that it wouldn’t be less difficult, but then, I strongly believe in what Kurt Vonnegut was saying “We are what we pretend to be, so we must be careful what we pretend to be.” Thus, I’m carefully pretending that I am very studious until I already am. LOL. I’m not sure if I’m still making a point here but I just wanted to pass the board exams for the first time and the last time. :) I am very willing to commit to this sacrifice to lessen one of the biggest distractions for me. This would not be so hard for me since I have doing a lot of sacrifices in these 20 years of trauma. I would like to believe that this will help me a lot in concentrating, dismissing all the negativities, etc. that might result to/increase the pressure that I am feeling right now. I know that it is normal to feel such pressure but I am afraid that I might not be able to handle too much stress at the moment. I just feel that this is what I need-to be disconnected just for a while and have more time for myself so, TTFN, Facebook! TTYL! ;)
